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Pain, and shopping
Apr. 12th, 2014 08:59 pmI finally made it to the big grocery store, the one I've been putting off for a few weeks now. Today was the second day of a 2-day sale that would save me lots of money for the stock-up items I need. So I finally was able to persuade myself to go, already.
It was grueling. And more painful than the last time. I deeply regretted not looking for a motorized cart when I came into the store, by the time I was at the back of the store and the pain set in. But I pushed on, and did my usual cutting of the list as I went. After I failed to figure out where two of the non-usual items were located, I began cutting in earnest. I also elected to go to a staffed checkout, instead of my usual self checkout.
It was nice that I saved around 35% on the half of the list I got, but oh, the pain. And the worst part was stopping in the restroom before I went out to the car. I have been wearing incontinence products for over a year now, and today, when I went to the bathroom here at home before I left, I had to change the pad. Except I was so into my head, trying to psych myself up to go to the store, that I failed to put on a new pad. Luckily I only spotted a little, and I had brought another pad with me, thinking I might need to change it again. But for mental lapses, this was so, so disturbing.
Then when I got home I hurt so much all over that it took a ridiculous amount of time to get into the house. But I can blame that on the fact that the current medication the doctor has me on for my blood pressure has drug interactions that require I not take the otc pain meds that I use to manage my chronic pain.
And now, now I will work slowly on putting things away, and resting. Lots and lots of resting.
It was grueling. And more painful than the last time. I deeply regretted not looking for a motorized cart when I came into the store, by the time I was at the back of the store and the pain set in. But I pushed on, and did my usual cutting of the list as I went. After I failed to figure out where two of the non-usual items were located, I began cutting in earnest. I also elected to go to a staffed checkout, instead of my usual self checkout.
It was nice that I saved around 35% on the half of the list I got, but oh, the pain. And the worst part was stopping in the restroom before I went out to the car. I have been wearing incontinence products for over a year now, and today, when I went to the bathroom here at home before I left, I had to change the pad. Except I was so into my head, trying to psych myself up to go to the store, that I failed to put on a new pad. Luckily I only spotted a little, and I had brought another pad with me, thinking I might need to change it again. But for mental lapses, this was so, so disturbing.
Then when I got home I hurt so much all over that it took a ridiculous amount of time to get into the house. But I can blame that on the fact that the current medication the doctor has me on for my blood pressure has drug interactions that require I not take the otc pain meds that I use to manage my chronic pain.
And now, now I will work slowly on putting things away, and resting. Lots and lots of resting.
