Emotions are hard
Mar. 22nd, 2013 12:18 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
monkey5sI stopped into the library to pick up some requests this morning, and saw the boss. I teased him that I kept checking the "new items" listing on the homepage, and there keeps not being anything listed for music. He said "It's coming- I just placed an order yesterday." I asked him where he was getting the CDs, and he said he's decided to go with a different vendor.
Because they offer "standing orders" and the place I always used, which was less expensive, did not.
The music collection was my pride and joy. I worked hard to track what I felt would go well at our small-town library, without ignoring the rest of the music world (because honestly? For local popularity, you would just buy all the country released, though less of the women artists than men. Then, be sure to get every "Now that's what I call music" that comes out, and some of the top pop and rock CDs- but not much of it). But the boss said he tried asking everyone on staff, and nobody was willing to step up and do the job. So it seems he's decided to just outsource it.
I already knew he had decided that we had been overstaffed, and he was not going to replace me when I left. But the real work I did? The part of my job I enjoyed the most? Not worth replacing that, even by having someone else on staff do it.
I had e-mailed links to previews of music releases coming this year, and asked specifically about some of them. He responded, wanting to know if I had release dates for them, and I explained that you could easily search the vendor's website and list them as preorders once they showed up there. Apparently that was just too much work. So from now on I'll just have to look for the CDs I want, and see if I can get them from other libraries, when ours doesn't have them.
But I still can't quite pin down the emotions involved. Other than loss. Is that an emotion?
Because they offer "standing orders" and the place I always used, which was less expensive, did not.
The music collection was my pride and joy. I worked hard to track what I felt would go well at our small-town library, without ignoring the rest of the music world (because honestly? For local popularity, you would just buy all the country released, though less of the women artists than men. Then, be sure to get every "Now that's what I call music" that comes out, and some of the top pop and rock CDs- but not much of it). But the boss said he tried asking everyone on staff, and nobody was willing to step up and do the job. So it seems he's decided to just outsource it.
I already knew he had decided that we had been overstaffed, and he was not going to replace me when I left. But the real work I did? The part of my job I enjoyed the most? Not worth replacing that, even by having someone else on staff do it.
I had e-mailed links to previews of music releases coming this year, and asked specifically about some of them. He responded, wanting to know if I had release dates for them, and I explained that you could easily search the vendor's website and list them as preorders once they showed up there. Apparently that was just too much work. So from now on I'll just have to look for the CDs I want, and see if I can get them from other libraries, when ours doesn't have them.
But I still can't quite pin down the emotions involved. Other than loss. Is that an emotion?
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Date: 2013-03-23 08:31 pm (UTC)Yes, loss is an emotion. And an appropriate one in this case.